Wednesday, November 26, 2008

How do I love tree?

I found my tree.

When you find yours, nurture it.

Hydrate the roots.

Let the sun shine upon it.

Watch it grow little by little each day.

Take pictures once in a while.

Laugh at the sheer folly it makes when winds blow.

Prune the old branches to make space for new ones.

Stare at its beauty.

Lie down beneath it and feel comforted by the shadow it casts upon you.

Delight with the thought it bears fruits, in multitude even.

Share the joy it brings.

Read a book and sing a tune for it.

Breathe the fresh air it radiates.

Be grateful for a tree provides life.. and love.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Meeting the "Fockers" :-)

My past weekends have been about absorbing and engaging encounters, something really new to me. Meeting the people who are significant to my significant other is a totally distinct experience, them having a unique view and way of life, at least compared to my more normal orientation I guess.

What struck me the most is that how open communication, outrageous, vulgar and no holds barred even, can really open up anyone's inhibitions, open new doors for understanding, and give room for no pretension and no prejudice, just plain simple conversation and sharing of opinions no matter how insane or deep the topic is. It's about leveling and appreciating the remarkableness of a person and holding no judgment whatsoever. It's also just about recognizing the individuality of each person and respecting their wholeness and being no matter how eccentric it may be.

It's been such a privilege to have known the "Fockers," especially the mother "Focker." :):):)

I hope for more fruitful, productive, entertaining, enlightening and peaceful encounters, although I'm also ready to witness a "high mass, third remix" episode, me not the main character in focus of course, at least not yet, too early (HAHAHA).

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Jedi name

Cast off your old name! My Jedi name is

ROMDO JOQUE of the planet Valium!

Find your Jedi Name!

Long live Star Wars! I've always wondered how to live a Jedi's life, exciting :)

Home alone

Since Dadi died, I often find myself being left in the house alone which for a long time I have only dreamt of, physical solitude that is. This made me realize how used I was, considering the big family I belong to, to being with somebody all the time and not really enjoying moments alone. Moments before that even freaked me out since I tend to have a wild and creative imagination with all the horror movies I've seen. But then again, spending sometime alone gives me this rare chance to enter into a space I never appreciated before, a space where I visualize life in a different paradigm. Where nothingness seems surreal yet gives me an unexplainable tranquility. That no matter how stressed I get with all the adult responsibilities and obligations given me and I guess I have willingly accepted, a voice inside me calms my being and gives me a fleeting moment of serenity that I am where I should be exactly now and things will always fall into place as long as I don't lose focus on doing good and bringing out the best in me and in other people. Storms of confusion and paranoia do subtly come, yet they are just in a jiffy when I choose to go back to that serene space in solitude where I am put at ease that everything is gonna be all right.

Ironically, too, this is the time in my life when I lost a significant character in my being and at the same time gained someone who characterizes my being more than anyone else has ever had. It almost always leaves me dumbfounded on how physically alone I am sometimes yet feel so loved and belonging to someone who holds my heart dearly. You. You who have ended my years of tormented hanging and waiting and masochistic ideals.. Je t'aime beaucoup :-*

Dadi, you have brought the family closer with your parting. That is the ironic miracle you have created and it has been a real blessing to have had you in this life. I hope you're resting in the Heaven's courts now and continue to watch over us while blowing the smokes from the clouds :-)

Lesson learned? Solace is indeed found in solitude.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Eternal Instants

I like that term I ran across reading Max Lucado's teaching again. Instances in life we usually take for granted like a swallow singing you a morning tune, a walk in the park, a stolen kiss, a moment of reflective silence. Instants that remind us there is indeed fleets of eternity experienced everyday.

Reality sucks - we all know that. Good thing, though, is that we don't. Fact is no matter how global recession haunts every president, prime minister and head of state, and stocks continue to plummet and give stockholders the scariest nightmare of their lives, life goes on. It always does. These are worldly instants that, yes, affect our reality as it is but, no, does not even come close to shaking our being if we only just realize our greater purpose here on earth - to learn the lessons, keep moving forward, and never stop loving. When to stop? When the angel of death arrives and invites you to cross over the other side :-). So question yourself, are you ready to cross over? If not, then let reality do its job of sucking and do your job of not sucking along with it.

Breathe, life goes on.. and on.. and on.. (pag off, patay ka na nun sige).

Here is the swallow singing me a happy tune every waking morning - meet Willy.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Joyeux Anniversaire!

To the one person:

who created waves of change and varying awakenings..

who has been through the extremes of life, fell and risen time and again..

who voraciously reads and no doubt will prefer going to Powerbooks or any specialty bookstore more than anywhere else..

who can spend the whole day by herself and still keep sane..

who has the most sensitive spirit I have ever encountered..

who uniquely shares the sentiments of my heart..

who is Pio's first broken heart..

and whose uniqueness I can't stop adoring..

Thank you for spending your special day with us.
Life has been so shiny and bright with your presence.
No one but you has ever touched that part in me who appreciates life beyond life.
We love you.
May the Good Lord keep you and bless you all the days of your life.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

stupefaction (thesaurus!)


is a miracle

waiting for us to explore.


if we only see through His eyes,

we find people and events coming to us by His grace.


life is a constant wonder,

seeing is not always believing

as there are a lot of things not seen but just felt.


we can choose to be grateful

or blame the world why it is the way it is.


as long as you are in my breathing space

I can only choose to be thankful

and give glory to Him for the best and worst moments

we have already shared and yet to come..

because through them all

we learn

we grow

we expand

we explore, together :-)

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Sunday, November 9, 2008


Random thoughts..

Performing miracles has been Jesus' way of letting us see the side of Him that which is but holy and mighty. We can be like Him in our everyday lives, being a blessing to others no matter how trivial it may seem, little acts of kindness that go a long way in God's eyes.

Sometimes we do things for reasons we ourselves cannot explain. The only reason I often come up with when I do things the way I do is because I love. Period. When you love, reasons are frequently inconsequential.

Suffering for others is a dimension only the heart can comprehend. Logic does not work when love is the basis. The greatest commandment is love, so what logic do we still need for that. It's nothing but commonsense. "The most clever among men is not necessarily the most genius among them, but he who uses his commonsense always. Going to heaven needs commonsense, too. Then, whether you eat, or drink, or whatever you do, do it for the glory of God.” (1 Corinthians 10:31)

Giving glory to God is as simple as waking up in the morning and having the thought that I am still alive and will aim at doing my work well and in the process give happiness to the people who depend on me.

Christ-like is being at peace with yourself and having that peace serve as light to others.

Toxic faith happens when we rely so much on literally interpreting the words. Words are merely words when not put into action. They only become signifiant when we apply what we believe and utter.

Read this from one of Max Lucado's teachings, really nice:

"As long as you think you can control people’s behavior toward you, you are held in bondage by their opinions. If you think you can control their opinion and their opinion isn’t positive, then guess who you have to blame? Yourself.

It’s a game with unfair rules and fatal finishes. Jesus didn’t play it, nor should you.

I can’t assure you that your family will ever give you the blessing you seek, but I know God will. Let God give you what your family doesn’t. If your earthly father doesn’t affirm you, then let your heavenly Father take his place.

Having your family’s approval is desirable but not necessary for happiness and not always possible. Jesus did not let the difficult dynamic of his family overshadow his call from God. And because he didn’t, this chapter has a happy ending.

What happened to Jesus’ family?

Mine with me a golden nugget hidden in a vein of the Book of Acts. “Then [the disciples] went back to Jerusalem from the Mount of Olives.… They all continued praying together with some women, including Mary the mother of Jesus, and Jesus’ brothers” (Acts 1:12, 14, emphasis added).

What a change! The ones who mocked him now worship him. The ones who pitied him now pray for him. What if Jesus had disowned them? Or worse still, what if he’d suffocated his family with his demand for change?

He didn’t. He instead gave them space, time, and grace. And because he did, they changed. How much did they change? One brother became an apostle (Gal. 1:19) and others became missionaries (1 Cor. 9:5).

So don’t lose heart. God still changes families.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant-Garde
You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.
You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.
Completely uncensored, your blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.
You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Dare Fly

It seems life has its way of turning things around when you least expect it. People come, people go, but a part of you never stays the same even when they leave. Things change, better or worse, and even gone unnoticed if you don't pay attention. It's the oxymoron of life.

I would never tire being grateful having you in my atmosphere.. You have brought so many exciting, chaotic in a challenging way, fascinating and billowing moments that I have already engraved your name in my heart.. a three-letter name I hold dear in my thoughts everyday. No one else has fitted me like you have. It's but magic how we can turn words flying and touch every quintessence of our being and create almost a phantasm that no matter how abstruse everyday becomes, we have each other and that is enough..

You have given me wings to dare fly again.

And I'm not even afraid of crashing..

because I know you are worth all the flights.

Monday, November 3, 2008

3K and gudang :-)

I love passionate people. Passion reverberates.

Passion leads to wonderful sentiments.

Sentiments make us sensible humans.

What does it take to be sensible? I guess when you choose to listen more and talk less. It makes sense that to be truly connected with anyone, you have got to learn the art of listening, giving time for the person to express freely, giving insight, sharing feelings. If you get to master taming your mouth and then intensely utilize your ears, people will realize you give them precious time and avenue to be themselves and be free, at the same time having the chance to pick up a lot from them. Authentic communication then happens and being sensible occurs naturally with the exchange of musing. Fine art, isn't it?

It's always a delight to have sentimental moments shared with passionate friends. Makes life a lot more interesting and fun. Here's to more 3K and gudang sessions :-)